End of MY rope

I'm at the end of MY rope. Jeff says his graduation from Basic Training is on December 19, but Family day is December 18. Well, I've been pricing out airline tickets and found that it's just best for us to get a round trip tickets from Salt Lake to Montgomery Alabama. I booked the flights and after booking Jeff's flight to fly home with us, I noticed he was on a different flight. I used to separate credit cards, and now don't have enough on either cards to redo the purchases, until the money is refunded. After a fit of anger I cancelled all our reservations. God allowed me to cancel my reservations without stopping me, God allowed me to be a nasty person to the lady on the other end, God allowed me to place myself in this mess, God has now allowed me to have my pity party. Praise God that I'm now painfully sorry for ALL my actions. Praise God that He gave me the revelation that my behavior, was just that 'my behavior' and not His. In His grace, He whispered "SHUT UP DEB, I'LL TAKE CARE OF THIS", of course He had to whisper it several times, before I as usual hear what He was saying. So, I'm taking a breather for a couple of days before I start looking at airline flights, I will contact and move money around in order to get the flights and know that the money will be refunded for the first flights, not in my timing, but in Gods'. PRAISE GOD, He gave me more rope to work with, I just won't be playing with the rope today.